It is amazing how 20 minutes of talking about your TAC app and television shows can instantly brighten my mood. I never really know how asleep my soul is until I talk with you. Sometimes I go out of my mind thinking about every possibility, our friendship, what will happen to us in the future, what will happen to us in the present. What the hell is this? Am I just building this up in my mind making our friendship greater than it really is? Probably not. When I see you again (hopefully August 16, 2012…or sooner) will I still feel the same way? Will I get butterflies? Will I still feel the unexplainable tie to you? Probably. I think I am just doubting myself since I have not seen you in five months.

I love you, plain and simple. I swear, you are driving me crazy. What drives me crazy the most is the thought of how when we are in the same place again, there may still be a distance between us. That distance may partly be because of you, but today I realized it may be because of me as well. I truly feel that right now I am incapable of a relationship, even though I want so so badly to just be with you all day, every day, in love. It really sucks. I greatly desire to be yours, yet even if you wanted it, I cannot.

Dammit, I need some answers. How in the world did I find such an amazing best friend? More importantly, why did I find you? It cannot have been for no reason, and that is the question that is allowing me to hope for the future. And of course, the inevitable answer, which I desperately long for, also scares me to death.

And in the case that no one should read the above three paragraphs, let me just summarize.
I miss you.